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Thursday, November 1, 2012

I'm not perfect 11/1/2012 (Second aticle in 2012)


PERFECT = IMPOSSIBLE
 There is nobody is perfect in this world..
Same thing goes to me... I'm not...
 Troubles troubles and troubles...

Now, entering Form 6 is a wrong way for me maybe...
Prove me that i'm wrong...
I know it isn't the best way for me....
Although it named "Pre- U" students...
Yet, so what? It's still the same...
We've been treated like a secondary school students too...
Some teachers seems like don't like our class as they thought our class was arrogant...
Never mind as long as we aren't...
We know what we are and what we are doing...
Anyway, don't judge us without knowing the real of us...

Next, about my STPM Sem 1 examination...
It's getting nearer and nearer...
It's just 4 days left...
I'm so nervous and i don't know what to do...
I hate those feelings...
It made me sad and seems like i'm going to be crazy...
I have done lots of revision...
But when i get into exercises, all the things seems like so strange for me...
They knew me, but i don't know them...
STPM isn't as easy as i thought...
Physics Mathematics Chemistry and General studies (Pengajian Am)
4 subjects i'm going to fight...
Yet, the things i should be happy is that..
The holiday is near which is just after the examination...
It means that after 1 week exam,
Then i shall enjoy my holiday and let my mind rest...

It's time for me to set a good mindset in myself...
Prepare for the second sem of STPM...
After this exam, i will start to involve myself in some music...
I need to practice my music which i liked it so much and it just like my life...
My life would be suck without all these fellow...
I live for music...:)

Fighting...All the best...I know i can do it well in the exam...
God please bless me...
I will try my best....
Hope everything would be just great and have FUN...
Machine gun or Lazer gun is ready to against the war... :D

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

I'm Back~ 16/5/2012 (First article in 2012)







Hey You, You, You and You...
I did not see you for a long time...

Since SPM were starting, I'm leaving you...
But now this is the time for me to get back to you...
So, I wanna tell you, you, you and you...that...
I'm Back...
Welcome Home.. 


Hmm...Nothing much actually...
I'm just wanna to improve my English and shout out my feelings for no one...
It is just a simple, easier way for me to express and shout out all my feelings and unhappiness...


Yea...
First of all...
I had finished my SPM for a long time...
And i enjoyed the life after SPM as i went to many places and had a freaking great moments to be with my lovely family, friends and relatives...
Superb moments in my life...


After that...
I got into National Service's Life...
Which i'm very worried about that...
I' was definitely unhappy, scared and worried for getting into National Service...
I'm a kind of person who hardly get into new life...
And hardly to make friends with others...
I realized that i'm shy and maybe afraid to talk with strangers..
Lots of unfortunate things happened to me in the first week..
I felt very sad and alone...
I wanna go home...
I missed my family and friends...
I did wrote letters to home and apologize to my parents for the fault  that i did since i was young...
I did touched by myself and willing to cry while i was writing the letter...
I really damn MISSED lots of things and people while i was in the camp...
After that...I started to make friends with others...
Tried to get close with them...
And then day after day...
We became good friends which can make jokes and talking rubbishes..Haha...
So, conclusion.. 
I enjoyed my NS life too as it was a new experience for me...
Besides, there were many "first time" happened...
It counted as a memorable mark in my life...
I could still remember all the sweet memories and sad time we be with together...
Mixed feelings during the Graduation of the National Service...


Okay...3 months in NS...
Mixed feelings...
After that... I got a wonderful moment with my NS friends...
We went to Sunway Lagoon...
Whow...I was very excited for that trip...
It was been a long time that i did not have a roller coaster ride...
And it was SURPRISED me...
Happy to be with them although it was just a 3 days 2 nights' trip...
Actually it was counted as a gathering instead..=)


Next,
The moment i hated the most...
And also saddest the most...
I got my SPM result...
It made me very down, down and down...
I was about to cry when i got to see my sucks result with my own eyes..
I hated the moment... very much... a lot.... 
My friends all got a good result...
I was happy for them...
But i was very disappointed with my own result...
I just got 4As,5Bs,1C...Oh god...
My Biology got a "C"!
Fortunately i got 2A for my 1119 english...=)
Whatever... it had past....
I've been went through that Emo moment...
Now everything is over...


Furthermore...
I went for a Sabah Trip...
I was the tourism guider along the trip..
Haha......
Actually... I was only just set the map by using GPS...
Nice experience...
I was super duper excited while the airplane was going to fly...
My very first experience in the airplane..
AirAsia...^^Not bad...
6 days 5 nights' trip was fun...
Mount Kota Kinabalu was cooling...
Even i was lazy to make any movement instead of  lying on the bed and cover my whole body with a thick bed sheet...
Went for snorkeling and i got sun-burnt...Painful T.T
I took lots of pictures...
Proboscis monkey was damn cute!!!!!!!!!! I love them...
Haha..i could still remember...
I spent about an hour to took sunset photography...
I was willing to wait for it.. =)...
Seafood there was super super super NICE delicious.....
Yummy... My brother's friend brought us to a restaurant...
The Crabbies there was just Rm18 per KG....
Wow......Damn worth...
Cheesy Crab......Finger licking good...
Went for twice..=D


Next...
I started my Form 6 life...
=(  Challenging...
I felt nervous although the lesson still haven't start yet...
I'm worried every time before i go to school...
Transport probably a big problem for me..
Orientation weeks for 3 weeks...
Oh god...The orientation was damn boring...
Dislike... I prefer start the lesson earlier...
Never mind, just a few days to go...


Last but not least...
Cutie BabyBoy...
Haha... My elder sister had just gave birth to a baby boy...
My nephew... Cutie and chubby face.....
Love him...<3.....


Today is Teachers' Day...
Thanks for my lovely teachers , family and friends...
I love all of you as you loved me too..=) <3
May god bless everyone...
Let the coming days to be happy days for me...
My Dream will be come true...
I do believe... :D
Kay..that's all i want to share...Love you guys.. :D


To be continue.....

Friday, October 7, 2011

2011 第十二篇文章>>>你听到吗?你知道吗?我想你...




这篇文章

没特别的意义,只想分享,

我,对他的思念...真实的故事...(如果有得罪或伤到,再此先道歉...)静静地听我分享,我,和他...

你知道吗?我昨晚又梦见你了...

我又梦见你那熟悉又陌生的脸

你亲切,温柔的脸,

当我醒过来时,我知道...

我想你了...

虽然在梦境中,迷迷糊糊,

但我依然清晰地记得,

在梦里,你唱的生日歌,

每一字每一句,我都记得

你的声音,是多么的温柔

我想念你的声音

可以听你叫我一声 “弟弟” 吗?

你带给我很多美好的童年回忆,

幼小时候,你总爱和我开玩笑,

你会买很多很多的东西给我,逗我开心

我依然记得,你吹口风琴时,那潇洒的模样

当时的我,真的有一丝丝的羡慕

希望有一天,能够像你吹得那么的流畅

就这样,我买了一个小小的口琴

很努力地把它练起来。

练了一段时间后,终于会吹出一些简单的曲子,感觉还蛮自豪的

但,比起你吹的,我永远都追不上。

你,可以教我吗?我好想学!

犹然记得幼小时,

每当我放学后,你就会骑着你的老铁马,

而个子小小的我,就会用双手,抱着你

然后跟随你到外面去到一间印度店喝茶。

那个老板娘也蛮好的,

由于是常客,有时他都不收我们的钱。

每一次,都是你请我。

何时,才轮到我请你一次?

真的只要一次就好!可以吗?

还有,在我小学的时候,

接近放学时,你每天都会到学校来给我送一些糖水...

有时是红豆水,有时是薏米水,有时是绿豆水...

辛苦你了...我不会忘记的

那时的我真的很幼稚!

有时,我还和你说,我不想喝...

但,你还是逼我把它喝完...

现在,我真的和你说,我是真得真得真的好想再喝到!

太多太多的回忆,说也说不完...

太多太多的回忆,你带给我的,我今生都不会忘记

因为那是多么多么的美好,一生只有一次,以后不会再有...

去年,

想起当时握着你那还有一点温度的手,

心里真得很难受。

但我没显露出来,因为我不想你放不下。

我只能静静的看着你,心里却在哭泣...

为什么你不紧握我的手?为什么?

和你说话,你却没有回应...

你,离开了我们...

这已成为事实...

虽然,你已经离开了我,

但你的影子,永远都会在我的脑海里...

永远也挥散不去...牢牢地印在我的脑海里...

至今,我还是依然的挂念着你

你的每一字每一句我都会把它牢牢地记住

有时想到你,我都会流眼泪,

哈哈,都是你害我流眼泪的...

但这代表,我想你,

你在我心目中有着不可取代的地位

真的真的真的很想问你一句

简单却熟悉又陌生的问候语:

“阿公,你好吗?”

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

2011 第十一篇文章>>> 时机


时机

浪费很多时间了。
再多一个月,
将会是我面对人生最重要的考试的时候了。
我?
准备好了吗?
好像什么也没准备!
不是我不想,
而是,我没有那个心。
为什么这样呢?
之前的我呢?
跑去哪里了?
躲起来了吗?
考试的时间开始倒数了。
时间一分一秒地接近,
我一分一秒地紧张。
但是无动于衷,
明日复明日,明日何其多,
日日复明日,万事成蹉跎。
我明白这个道理,
有心无力,我更加明白这个道理,
无论如何,
我该控制自己了!
是时候了!
努力吧!
放弃一个月的欢乐时光,
换取以后的快乐的时光。
这应该是很好的交易吧。
各位考试的朋友们,
加油!
一起为我们的未来奋斗... FIGHTING...

Thursday, September 29, 2011

2011 第十篇文章>>> 是与非,错与对




是与非,错与对

这世上真真假假,太多是是非非...
哪一个才是真实,哪一个才是虚幻
已经把我搞得团团转...
信任真的很重要
但这世上的信任,已经渐渐减弱。
能真正信任的人,真的屈指可数。
这世界太虚伪,社会生病了么?
请尽早就医吧,让生病的社会好起来,还原一个美好的社会。
是与非,错与对,
几乎是可以用很没有根据的方式判断。
为什么错的人可以不把事情当一回事
为什么对的人却要硬着头皮,很委屈的想错的人道歉?
这很不公平吧。
对,是非常不公平。
为什么会变成这样?是非颠倒?道德沦陷?
在这无奈的世界,
公平,很稀有
事情往往都是不公平的。
好人有好报,骗人的。
恶人有恶报,骗人的。
你仁,我义,也是骗人的。
你对别人仁慈,别人不一定会善待你。
所以,要好好的思考,好好的考量。
不然,受伤害的往往都是自己。
懂得自我保护,在现今的社会
是不可缺少的。
请做好心理准备,也不要抱着太高的期望
因为太高的期望,只会带来更多的失望。
不然,你会伤得很深...

Monday, September 12, 2011

2011 第九篇文章>>>八月十五 孤独的中秋夜晚



孤独的夜晚

有着难受的感觉...
孤独的夜晚...
很难熬...
没有人陪伴,
只有无聊的我,
陪伴着那叠叠重重的书...

尤其是还要面对明天的考试...
真的快喘不过气来了...
那种压抑的情绪...
难受啊...
有时真的很想大喊...
无形的压力令我无法应付...
有心无力,没有推动力...

我有着不是烦恼的烦恼,
没有烦恼的烦恼
是什么烦恼?
我只能说,
是无法解释,无法理解的烦恼...
因为连我自己也不清楚...
我知道是个无谓的烦恼,
外面世界很大,也很多烦恼,我都知道,
只不过,这真是把现在的我困扰着...

我绝对不是沉迷于电脑,
只不过,
我是在尝试着与别人交谈...
也许这也是,
我唯一能舒解压力的管道...

真想有个人能培我聊聊天...
谈谈所发生的事...
说说笑...说说是非...无所不谈...
让我在这样的情况下松一口气...
好让我放松心情...
可惜,距离和年龄是问题来源...
太遥远的距离,太遥远的差距...

朋友很多,知心的没几个...
好朋友很多,能放开胸膛谈的也是少之又少...
只怪我不懂得如何与别人拥有良好的沟通吧...
加上被动的性格...
根本不可能会与陌生人交谈...

有些事闷在心里,不好受...
说了出来,又不自在...
不是对别人不信任...
而是我对自己已失去了信任...

有时候,
深怕自己会烦到别人...
或许是多疑...
但多疑是我的性格,
我无法阻挡...
总爱胡思乱想...
所以最后只好选择沉默...

夜深了,
听着时间滴滴答答地响着...
这表示着...
寂寞也跟随着来临...
伤感也不甘示弱地来到...
这样的日子...
这样的感受
要维持多久...
几时才能过去...?

有时很想找到一个真正了解自己的人...
不管男的女的,
是否已经出现...?
我无法确定...
就让这一切由天决定,
一切随缘吧...

放下感叹,
又是该温习的时候了...
八月十五,月亮再圆,
心,永远都不圆满...
只有那空虚填满那寂寞的心灵...
我只能说,寂寞孤独的朋友们,加油吧~

Sunday, August 21, 2011

2011 第八篇文章>>>人心颇测 21/08/2011



人心颇测,
防人之心不可无。
尤其是在这个世纪,
处处都充满着疑惑。

虽然说是用真心对待每一个人,
但还是不要放百分之百的真心。
因为或许有一天,
伤害最深的人会是你。

心里想什么,
只有自己知道。
对与错,
也只有自己知道。
在还没下定论之前,
想想自己的所作所为。

在怪别人之前,
想想自己,
是否就真的每做错?
不要每次把责任,
推到别人身上。
这只会让别人鄙视。

然而,
我会把每个敌人都当朋友。
谢谢你让我失败。
因为我能从失败中,
站起来。
在失败中坚强。
学会了不可轻易相信别人。

被伤害过的人,
会比之前的想法更成熟。
因为已经看穿别人虚伪的面具。

未来的某一天,
我会证明给看不起我的人,
让他们知道,
我是可以的。
让他们知道,
不要轻看别人,
因为这世界没有完美的人!